how did I get here?
I was talking with a friend last week about how I was going to start writing again and publishing my writings on a blog. This came up because we were sharing what the Lord has been speaking to our hearts recently and where we were are with that. I shared a vulnerable part of my heart where I explained that the Lord asked me 2 years ago to start writing again but I ignored it for so long. I cannot pin point one specific reason as to why but I will share the thoughts that have come up…
I can tell you many stories of how the Lord has asked me to say yes to something in my heart and follow it with action not knowing why or what would come. I can tell you many stories of His faithfulness leading me and guiding me every step of the way. From missions, jobs, buying a home, to getting married, having children, and opening a coffee shop He has always been there.
So why is it so hard to still say “yes” majority of the time? Why are we so reluctant?
I believe that the Father formed us with a purpose. That within our hearts are dreams that are meant to come alive with the purpose of loving others rightly, for others to see the beauty of the Father, and for them to be known by Him. I believe that the Father guides us on a journey through life and each “yes” is an act of obedience closer to another dream of our heart, another passion coming to life. And sometimes, ones we were not aware of.
Why are we so reluctant to say “yes”?
The enemy has a way of using society and trauma to foster doubt in our hearts. Doubt in our hearts causes us to forget our identity in Him. We forget who we are and even more so, we doubt who we are. And what that does is it causes us to no longer walk through our life with our God given purpose. The purpose for which God formed us. It’s more than a “yes”, it’s the vehicle that we get to use so that all who surround us might experience Him and be known by Him.
Our “yes” makes the enemy fear us.
Why are we so reluctant to say “yes”?
Our “yes” carries weight. It carries obedience and sacrifice. It unlocks the glow of God in our life. And God is not only on the other side of it, He is right there with us holding our heart in His hand waiting to dwell with us in our yes. He is faithful and always present with us.
How did I get here?
After two long, reluctant years I said “yes”. I said “no” to fear and “yes” to love. I do not know the grand meaning of my “yes” but if it’s only to encourage you to say “yes” with action to what the Father is calling you to, then it was worth it.